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Tuesday, June 2nd, 2009
12:50 pm	welllllllllllllllllll i'm an old married bat.... haha i love it. tonight.. dinner and a movie... with a freind, i don't think we've had much alone time... but its fun anyway! to dos: work finish printing wedding pics for book finish new moon... which i am utterly addicted to. movie dinner bed... repeat as needed. thanks to everyone who came to the wedding you made it that much more special!! <3 Current Mood: busy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 21st, 2009
7:41 pm	"I have not begun to defile myself" and i have not. downed a 6pack and working on more... haha. sounds sooo hardcore but alas its been over a 3 hour time frame. group project... i'm technically working on now. bleh. i hate group projects. hanging with the girls today was fun... i miss doing that.. but i've definately been doing it more frequently lately. well, massive projects, due tomorrow. massive test tomorrow. work with my "sturdy wings" kids tomorrow, then work the rest of the week, bridal luncheon saturday... *gag* and............... hopefully relaxation soon. hope everyone out there is well!! Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 7th, 2008
1:08 pm	politics i feel the need to rant a bit. I got on the bus this morning, college bus route, only college students permitted. I just about went chuck norris on this one girl, "omg palin is coming to minges (our collesium) and they have such cute little red shirts, omg, could you like go to minges and like buy me one, cuz they are like tooo cute and i so need one" at this point i'm shaking my head, disgusted with politics anyway, but then someone who obviously can't think for herself without it relating to something unimportant, as fashion. Then she says, "omg i would like so vote for palin just cuz of the cute little shirts, what does GOP mean?" i pictured myself in a happy little place far away from the ignorance of the senior blonde bombshells that surround our campus... it didn't work, the worst part was that she was seriously thinking of voting for someone with a freaking "cute" tshirt... so if mickey mouse came around the corner would she have started to wear an elephant costume? America... no wonder we are in the state we are in. I have always loved living here, not having to see children being beaten to death on the street crying out for someone, or having a freind who had been shot by her brother because she was raped and no longer of use to the family, but because i could have a muslim on one side, and a jew on the other and i the christian in the middle and conversing with both, being able to go into a company and change their thinking about what people of various races and genders and socio-economic statuses can contribute. However, it is no longer what we can accomplish together, it is HOW CAN I SUCCEED MORE THAN MY BROTHER, HOW CAN I KNOCK DOWN THE PERSON STANDING IN THE JOB POSITION I WANT. It is holding children ransom and black mailing each other like four-year olds throwing a temper tantrum except deadly and costly, and it is simply because americans have become ignorant to what is important for the WHOLE, and only concerned with the "cute little red shirt" that is offered to them, or the free food given at a town meeting, or winning face with people in higher power. i am disgusted. Things have to change and unfortunatly i don't believe things will change quickly enough, and drastically enough to save us. i hope i am wrong. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 10th, 2008
11:05 am	suck, suck, and more suck! it feels like everyday is another disappointment. my grandmother ecently was diagnosed with 6 different types of cancer, and a tumor thar will eventually suffocate her. she is an individual that will do anything for anyone regardless of the request, it breaks my heart. pray for her please. the new house is wonderful and the new dog is sweet. shiloh, quite a blessing in maintaining good behavior from hercules. jacob is well,as is his mother, and mine. dad is improving everyday. people i have gotten close to have really disappointed me in their recreational drug use, or blowing off someone they said was their best friend, and manipulation, just be real, quit trying to please everyone, maintain one friend for one year. Current Mood: disappointed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 30th, 2008
9:00 am	YAY! Sooooooo, yesterday jacob and i went to a jewlery store to get ideas for possible rings for a future engagement. I found the perfect one. Of course being me i had to go and check to see if it was still there yesterday... then.... the woman came over and said, OH yea, you came by the other day. yea i sold your ring! i was sooooo sad... little did i know, jacob had bought it and talked to my dad.... later that night he proposed. so, i'm engaged and everyone is really happy for us. My mom can't wait to plan the wedding, which will be next summer. I'm so freaking excited. my freinds and i are going out friday night to celebrate. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 18th, 2007
9:38 am	this sucks so the chinese have finally decided to cash in on our debt we have been so kind to sell them... and bush threatened a ww3... yea right, with what money and what army? seeing as we have no army and what is left of it is in a whole other country.. way to suck jackass. so now, it took all of 24 hours our currency is $2 for ever $1 of canadian loonies... the world is going to shit. thank you bush.. Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 8th, 2007
11:22 am	wow long time so my computer's been down, no suprise its been biding its time anyway. work sucks, but hopefully a new career, not just a job, is in the works and i really hope it comes through. as far as the new boy, things are great, unfortunatly he is sick, but thats ok cuz i'll take care of him. we had a big dinner last night and that was nice. hope everyone is doing well and in gear for the new school year !!! <3 take care everyone! Current Mood: curious (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 17th, 2006
4:37 pm	fat b*tch so, i woke up last Sunday morning to that scratched into the hood of my car. my entire car was keyed. there was a drink thrown on the driver's side and someone wrote F U in the liquid... i woke up two days ago to more dents down the driver's side, and dog shit wiped on it. now, in all honesty what do you think i had done to these people? would you guess that i had asked them repeatedly, amazingly politely, to not park in my assigned spot because i have to park down the street in someone else's visitor parking. well a few days before the keyed car, he car was towed, she assumed it was me, she came up to my door in her bathrobe asking me if i had her car towed. i never had her car towed. and the best part is, i cant catch them doing this, i've been up all night last night watching my car. the police cant even touch them because no one has witnessed any of this. so because someone thinks i did something, they have caused over $3,000 of damages to my car,that i have to pay to have it fixed. so the lesson: dont be nice to people you will get fucked over a million times worse than what you would expect. Current Mood: sad (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 14th, 2006
7:14 pm	without a trace is a pretty good show... how long until the dam breaks? Current Mood: numb (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 8th, 2006
5:46 pm	the stress!!! ahhhhhhh ok, so unfortunatly i wont be in raleigh on saturday... the guy i was supposed to show the house to ended up being a perv and was asking questions and such that were inappropriate, ken ended up calling him and telling him the house was off the market and not to call anymore... it pretty much ruined my day b/c i was late to work dealing with that. *cries* and it kinda bothered me the rest of the day. i was glad to find it out though before i went and showed him the house alone. well its storming pretty badly so i'm going to light a candle and hope the power doesnt go out... *sigh* i wish someone would get home and talk to me, i wish sometimes that our agenda's would just work, mesh if you will, together and when one is needed the other is available, unfortunatly thats life and something i need to accept. i did get my paycheck today, wooohooo, not big though, at all... time to save. peace everyone. <3 Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
8:55 am	mmm starbucks... class starts in like 30 minutes, i honestly hate this class, but there are a few people worth going to see. *sigh* its raining outside and coach still hasnt cancelled softball today... i hope he will *fingers crossed* im too exhausted to go. oh well. i love coffee.... its a good substitution for sleep, i want to pat the person on the back that decided to make coffee. yay ok, yea... sleep deprivation and alot of coffee can be kinda bad. on a positive note, NETWORK OF TERROR IS PLAYING TOMORROW AAAANNNDDD teresa and i are going for chinese before hand! yay!!! im so excited!! so i've been trying to finish this biography, its really good esp considering i like the person, but i want to read lovely bones, and then i have like a huge pile of other books to read... i'll never catch up, but then i'll complain when i dont have a pile to read... yea its a vicious cycle... *tears* lol. spring break in like 17 DAYS!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh im soo excited!!! yayayayayayayayayayayayayayay!!!!!!!! uh, this guy just sprinkled me with raindrops from his freaking umbrella... not that it makes much difference, im drenched, but still....*sigh* my cats went crazy this morning, i have no idea why, maybe b/c i pushed snooze twice on my alarm clock and then wouldnt get up.... annendale/ewok, didnt really care one way or the other but she jumped up on my little roll desk and didnt quite make it so i heard scratching and about the time i look up i see her fall back to the ground... the other day she missed the counter and ended up in the sink... wtf? oh and the best cat story i have so far... i love these cats *starts cracking up/ tears/ the works* ok so speck was on top of the toilet (the back of it) behind my towel, and annendale/ewok, was sitting on the lid, and spec was trying to get her to play with her, so she started pawing, and hit the handle and flushed annendale! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhahahahahahahaha it was amazing!! well thats about all to report. <3 2 years, 4 months tomorrow (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 7th, 2004
10:25 pm	*coughs* im dying im sooo sick, and pitifully sad acting. my ears hurt like hell, my throat is sore, and im sneezing/coughing non stop! oh boy! oh well, no school tomorrow \m/ so this chick has gone around saying shit like i wont let her be friends w/pj, i just thought i should let you all know, you can spread the word, despite the fact you should know im not like that, i told pj (after this chick tried to get him to cheat on me while i was out of town-which he didnt, <3)she isnt the freind he deserves, but im not to judge his freinds, but never the less, i said "i cant appreciate your freindship with her, but i will respect the fact that you all are freinds, and i cant trust her alone with you." my EXACT words. that was subtle, my mom thought i was more than entitled to go off, as well as more than a handful of others at school, who when asked me what happened, after she bitched to them...funny huh? just so everyone knows, i never told him he couldnt be freinds with her, i always support him hanging out with freinds, and always suggest doing so, i would NEVER tell him he cant be freinds with anyone, for any reason. why do people have to fuck w/other people's happiness?! why do people enjoy ruining things for others? if someone is happy, be happy for them, dont try to fuck it up, even if you were burned in the past, i've been burned, more than once, but guess what... i dont go around ruining things for others, even when i was single. everyone should bear the simple fact that things WONT always go your way, but you CAN be happy for others, you CAN respect other people's relationships, and you CAN go on, just a LIFE goes on... imagine that... never-the-less, im done bitching sorry guys. "i can sum up everything i learned in life in three words...'it goes on'" ~Ralph Waldo Emerson i <3 pj more than the whole sky!!! <33333333333333333 (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004
10:35 pm	i control you *yawn* after today i could sleep forever, it was not only boring, but exausting. school was busy, not too busy but enough, then after school marching band practice, sucked, but it went by fast... my feet hurt though. theni came home, worked on homework, then ate dinner, got online, learned "island in the sun" by weezer woot woot. =w= then i got on the pohne, then attacked olin w/a huge roll from the wrapping paper we ran out of the other day, it was most excellent... he tore it to shreds though... lol so much fun. and now here i am, bored as fuck and nothing to do. tired though, very tired, and you may ask why not go to bed... im still very much awake thats why so dont go around challenging me you low lifes!!! scummm!!! hahah rhymes with cumm, my god im bored. so thats all for today, see (this is for you colleen and tina) **YA'LL** later. i <3 pj! "you were there to hold on" Current Mood: crazy Current Music: coheed and cambria "the light and glass" (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 30th, 2004
10:30 pm	the god damn pen is blue yea they're watching liar liar again, im in an anti-social mood which sucks esp since im with some pretty badass people. o well, anyway, i'll be at my dad's tomorrow *&$% me in the @$$ yea not happy about that at all, kill me please someone come with a weapon of distruction and end this pitiful excuse of a life. *gags* no me gusta me padre, me padre es muy stupido *gags-whore!* lol anyway, my mom's mad cuz harley and them invited me to the movies... heh, yet another contradicting issue considering how she wants me to hang out with more people but yet... yea go figure. i've visited with family most of the weekend, most of em' are dying apparently, like five have cancer, and another is just old, i didnt talk to them i've had enough death for a awhile, i dont want to hear about it or even notice, so they will pass on and like most of my family, not even notice the fact that i've never really ever even said hi to them cuz me madre doesnt care much for social situations and only goes when a certain family obligation causes her to. but no emotional attachments, so therefore i'll live through it... enough of my pity me rant... go figure, i'm totally all about myself, well im tired i've had like 4 dramamine pills cuz i get totally sick in the car. well i'll update later, i dont, and probably never will understand why the hell i ever update cuz i know you all are tired as %$#@ of hearing about it all. i <3 pj! Current Mood: blah Current Music: i've had stuff stuck in my head- dont worry its not voices (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 21st, 2004
8:38 pm	sundays are fun.. :) so im a dramatic paranoid freak, thanks parents!! lol but anyway, im tired , this weekend was good, and school its tomorrow. GOING TO RALEIGH, 4TH-THE 9TH OR 10TH, GET IN TOUCH WITH ME!!!! <3 LOL laterz~ "everybody's to busy being politically correct, what about the truth?" i <3 pj !!!!!1 <3 <3 !!!!! hehehehe :) Current Mood: lazy Current Music: whistle on tv (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 18th, 2004
10:26 pm	welcome to the jungle-with gang green nipples(hehe) im updating.... o so shocking.. mac went to dillons and thus, i have complete control of el computar!!! muahahahaha! my hand is quickly dying,and is stilll swollen from last night... fucking kill that dog, bit my hand.. i hatethat dog... not really but what the hell..... and NO i didnt kick it or hit it or anything... anyway, i have to go check on katie, ashleys' spending the night again this friday, rocking, likethe past 3 weekends, lol coolkid i must say, then sat. im going to her house with a few other people, it'll definatly becool. her mom rocks! anyway, i wish my parents rocked like that, but they're too paranoid im all depressed, which i must admit was a possibility recently but for now,im good. she got all pissy w/my therapist and made me leave i think. i dontknow. she hasnt made any appointments that im aware of and she doesnt like them anymore. so anyway, im kinda stuck btwn not talking to anyone,and other stupid stuff that i'd not be able to do anymore. well imgonna go watch south park, woot woot. laterz~ "i painted my nipples green for st.patricks day, but it wont come off and they look likethey have gang green.."~brian ^kid cracks me up i <3pj ever so much!!!! <3 <3 Current Mood: cynical Current Music: some random made up chinese song on south park (Comment on this)
Monday, March 8th, 2004
10:50 am	wow... monday...*hangs self* its a monday and despite the lack of school,it still feels like a monday. im at my grandmother, with my most excellet cousins. i had a pretty bad asthma attack last night, and im still slightly worn out cuz of it. o well yea, im still harrasing pj on the phone every chance i get, poor kid. *sigh* i miss him. i've gotten some cool old records and a cd- of course REM!! i know im so weird, o well. and might i add there is no good way to type on this keyboard.*gags* i'll go ack o georgia tomorrow, sad, but im kinda happy. i feel like crap right now *sickwise* but owelli guess i will get over that as well. i had hoped to have claire and crystal over, but im pretty sure that wont happen before i leave, whichi sad but o well. we're going to the art museum shortly (i cant wait i dont know aobut my cousins or mac though) then we're going shopping. anyway im loaded on benedryl and ibeupofen so im gonna go cuz i have other suff i need to get done then im gonna go play on this like antique guitar w/nylong strings. so check ya later "smile, today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday." i <3 pj!!! Current Mood: nostalgic Current Music: my grandfather sucking his teeth *gags* (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 6th, 2004
8:51 pm	marriage... i'm so excited, me padre is getting married to the sweetest woman alive!! i cant wait they are so sweet together. she has two cats so i dont know how they'll get along with the dog, but apparently pretty well. i went to record exchange today ... both of them. i got a "who" album, a "rolling stones" album and a "pink floyd" album-final cut. sooo good, and they are going on my ceiling since im so lame as to not have a turn-table at mi casa in georgia. i've called pj god knows how many times today... poor kid, i felt bad, but i wanted to hear his voice, yes i already miss the kid, but friday definatly provoked me thinking about him all day :) *innocent look* we all went to the mall and then hung out at my house for a while... thats about all as of now, claire came over earlier and is coming back shortly, as well as crystal who should call my phone any minute. so i must go, but i will try to update for those of you who actually care to read. ttyl~ "whats love but a second hand emotion.." ^true, but i'd rather not admit it... i <3 pj !!! <3 <3!!! Current Mood: anxious Current Music: tv bleeping out the cussing on the tv show mac is watching (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
7:09 pm	o the shear irony of it all.... so i thought it was pretty crazy after the last entry i made, pj called. he had gotten off work early and was on his way over <3 <3 <3 it was very nice. today kinda sucked though, headache bleh, and for some reason i got this overly obnoxious burst of energy during lunch... and decided to sing the alphabet... i forgot "Q" go figure, well i have to go me madre is home *evil cat hiss* lol laterz~ "step outside, walk w/me, everyone i see is lonely..." i <3 pjj! Current Mood: lazy Current Music: the calling-uh.. lonely? (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, February 20th, 2004
8:49 pm	slow motion daydream ugh, today was ok. i got to see pj, which was wonderful, i actually got to talk to this chick ashley who is pretty cool, a sophmore who might be going with us to see slipknot, *cough* about 34 days or so till the concert. saw chris, talked to him, cool kid, to bad most people dont talk to him though. came home, and despite my being grounded got my nails done *gasp* i know shock cuz i did it willingly, but i got her to trim them really shortso they still look nice, but i can play guitar lol, and thenhung out w/ gordy and lisa. i wish i could've seen pj, i miss him so much now, i know im being stupid cuz it was only a matter of hours, but i wont see him until monday... which blows majorly. i fell asleep while doing a project and was woken up so i went up stairs...... on my way up i totally busted my ass and bruised my arm and got rug-type-burn on the other one.. great before i've even gone snowboarding, what a dumbass huh? so anyway, im listening to pink floyd wishing my baby was here, and much to my dismay, per usual, he wont be here, i wont see him, and i will continue to wish i did. well i've got to go pack and pray for rain so we dont have to go... but doubtful, i have to get up at seven in the morning... i'm definatly not looking forward to it. *sigh* i want to call my baby, but he's working and i dont want to bother him, yea i know i need to get over it right? too bad you couldnt pay me enough to right now. if i still feel about him as much as i did the days before he even asked me out... then i have no doubt that it wont go away for a long time, i miss him when he's not here and i want to call him when i cant see him and talk to him for hours, unfortunatly my schedule, no matter what only permits for us to get together every so often during the weekend, never during the week, and very very very rarely on the breaks. *sigh* o well, theres nothing i can do. so for now im gonna go try to get back to sleep and stay that way for a looooooooooong time and hope i either dont, or dont have to wake up in the morning. "suicide burning in" i <3 pj Current Mood: blank Current Music: pink floyd-i dont know the song *holds head in same* (1 Comment |Comment on this)